In-Site Insight

I realized that I’ve gotten ahead of myself. I hit six months in site, I’ve been in-country for nine, I’ve written countless blog posts, and yet none of them really tell you what my site is like. I’ve explained occurrences, I’ve told you that I live in Itapua, I mentioned that I live near my dear friend Chara, and I’ve explained that it’s a tiny town near Encarnación, a big city with a crazy beach scene and an even crazier Carnaval. Yet, that does it no justice. So this post is dedicated to Óga Ita. To its people, to its animals, to me, even, as a resident of the beautiful ramshackle town that I call home. And as a small representation, to Paraguay, most importantly.

Óga Ita is seriously small. I have only found one other volunteer with a smaller community. It is 25 houses, mostly populated by families with the last name Baez (every one of them my siblings, cousins, nephews, and other inexplicable distant relatives) or Gonzalez (who are now marrying into the Baez clan- I fear for the gene pool). Every house is just clapboards thrown up to form a room and a front covered patio. As more money is earned and more children materialize, more boards go up and more rooms appear. You can typically and logically figure out how many children a family has, just by looking at the house. Not only by size of the house but by the laundry hanging on the barbed wire fence or the amount of chairs placed in a circle outside under a mango tree. Everyone grows things for a living and everyone is poor. They know this, but they are the happiest people I’ve ever met. They grow their own food and sell other crops like sesame and chia and soy and tung and corn and get paid almost nothing for it. Yet they have their families, they have their land, they have their animals and terere and the clothes on their backs and they live. They laugh. They have the dirtiest senses of humor. They love and love some more and even if you’re a stranger, they’ll invite you in for lunch and make sure that you get second helpings, even if there really wasn’t that much to begin with. There are two despensas where home owners sell basic goods out of their house and where I buy rice, flour, yerba, oil, eggs, and maybe a box of wine if I’ve been particularly guapo that week, but a trip to despensa is never a quick trip. You go, you sit, you converse, you terere, you laugh and gossip and when you start talking about the weather for the third time, you off-handedly mention that you need a few things. You read your list, you pay, you say gracias and muchisimas gracias and graciamante and gracias again for good measure. And then the goodbyes start and drag on and on (the Irish claim this goodbye as their own, but I think Paraguayans deserve more credit). The women grow gardens: small, wood and bamboo fenced plots filled with cabbage and carrots and lettuce and tomatoes, but more importantly with menta and boldo and burrito and kapi’i cedron and toronjil and palmita and jagua retepo and all manner of plants and herbs to remedy your terere. The properties are surrounded by trees: oranges, mandarins, limes, grapefruit, mango, avocado, papaya, guava, peach, plum, pear, and banana mixed in with flowering lapacho and eery Yvyra Rõ. As one fruit finishes its season, another moves in, creating a seamless year of fresh fruit. There are chickens everywhere. Seriously. Everywhere. And mixed in are the ducks and geese and guinea fowl and the occasional turkey. Pigs run around, rooting and digging up my lawn until you hear a high pitched squealing on Sundays and know what’s for dinner. Cows are supposed to remain in coco palm studded pastures but somehow a gate is always left open or a fence post falls down and then there’s the racous cacophony of dogs chasing them back to their rightful place on the property. The dogs. Both the best and worst animal of Paraguay. Treated solely as guardians, they’re all skin and bones and only in cities and pueblos will you find a pure-bred. Ever seeking attention and love and the rare snack, they’ll follow you, bringing their cloud of flies and fleas drawn to the ever-present injuries with them. Yet they look at you with those big brown caring eyes that just force you to give them a pat or a piece of chicken, despite the smell that they carry with them. The children, like the dogs, are always dirty. They play in the mud with such carefree mannerisms. They jump on old water jugs as trampolines and shoot small coconuts at birds with their slingshots. They play pretend and laugh and smile and gauk at the gringo but sticking my tongue out and flaring my nostrils has been a favorable way to make friends under the age of eight. They wear the hand-me-downs of the siblings before them, worn bare, mended and ripped and scrubbed and mended again. They laugh at your Guaraní and don’t speak Spanish yet, but it doesn’t matter because their laughter and a good tummy tickle is the best interaction. Their parents breathe a sigh of relief and hand over their children for an hour without question. There is always work. Sweeping, cooking, feeding, washing, hoeing, clearing, tilling, planting, watering, spraying, fixing, building. There’s always work. But there’s always time for terere and good conversation and laughter too. You wave at everyone as you pass or as they do. The man on his horse, going to his cattle pasture, the German on his tractor, going to his soy field, the teenagers on their motos, the women leading their children to school; I wave at them all with a bellowing ADIOS! The roads are dirt, dyed a rich red that marbles with the white sand after a heavy rain. The roads are all uphill, carrying you up the rolling hills of northern Itapua and providing beautifully stunning vistas of the Reserve and soy fields and citrus trees lined up in neat rows like dark polka dots on a light green expanse. The roads can go on forever, lined by the tall camerun grass and barbed wire fences and small monuments dedicated to lost family members. There is little cover until you cross the rickety bridge over the trickling arroyo, surrounded by bamboo that rises high in its leafy grandeur and curve and allows you a small pause in the cool shade. In the summer the children and their older siblings flock to the streams and frolick in the waterfalls that created the massive rock cavern that gave my community its namesake. Even the adults join in the fun when the temperatures hit mid-90s and keep bumping up and up and up. Women congregate in the shade, gossip fresh on their tongues and hidden by the straw of a guampa. Cold beer, a small bottle of sugar cane liquor or cheap boxed wine mixed with fruit flavored soda make an appearance every night at the volley cancha, where machismo reigns supreme and men prove their athleticism and discuss their multiple girlfriends and generally just exude masculinity. They go loco for futbol and pride themselves on the fact that Óga Ita’s team has made it to the district league final, three years in a row. They hold biweekly games at the makeshift cancha behind the school and Juan Carlos sells beer and gum and cigarettes out of a tiny shack while Teodoro mans the grill, procuring pork and beef and chorizo. I can hear the noise of jeers and cheers and merriment and disappointment from the moment I step out my door on the way to the partido. The people will use anything as a reason to get together, kill a pig, open a box of wine, and enjoy each other’s company, whether it be for birthdays, the anniversary of a death, a holiday, a graduation, or just a celebration of recent good luck. Paraguayans laugh and smile and show off their years in the amount of teeth they have left, but they continue to smile despite this. The children go to my one room school for First to Sixth grade, every day for half a day, unless it’s raining or there’s a teachers strike or the profesora just didn’t feel like coming. After that, they continue on with their education in the nearby town of Perlita, with its larger schools and police department and meat market (quite the metropolis- 100 houses). They leave on the 3 AM bus to Encarnación or the United (European) Colonies when they need something important and they come back on the only other bus at 3, but only if there’s money. They love their families and stay close, moving to Buenos Aires or Asunción to work for awhile, but most likely moving slowly back home to be close to mamá and papá and to breathe freely once again in the countryside, away from the people and cars and noise and grime of the city. They love each other and care for each other, putting blood and strangeness, and reputation aside if there’s need. They have taken me, the gringo, the rubio, the voluntario and the extranjero, welcomed me in, calling me by a variety of names, but also calling me their own. They are people after my own heart: they eat, they drink, they converse, they laugh, they smile, they crack jokes, and purposefully poke fun, they play, they relax, they love, they terere. This is my home, these are my people. This is Óga Ita. And this is Paraguay.

Planting and Replanting

Your Guaraní lesson for the day:

  • (a)ve- I move
  • (a)veve- I move repeatedly, I fly
  • (a)po- I jump
  • (a)popo- I jump repeatedly, I hop
  • (a)mbopopo- I make jump repeatedly, I bounce
  • (a)pu- I sound, ring
  • (a)mbopu- I make sound, I play (an instrument)
  • (a)mbopupu- I make sound repeatedly, I boil water

 

Óga Ita, Itapúa, Paraguay

Today is Día de San Antonio, who apparently is the patron saint of the few little communities in the area, thus making it a holiday. He is also the patron saint of animals. So we’re killing a pig in his honor. I’ll just assume that pigs were his least favorite of the animals and overlook the irony.

Holidays don’t particularly govern activity in rural Paraguay, mainly just food consumption. Yesterday was a nationwide holiday in honor of the Paz de Chaco (Peace of the Chaco), when Bolivia and Paraguay finally stopped fighting over a desolate landscape and got their act together, from what I understand (and then Paraguay just gave it away for free to the Mennonites). Despite the fact that the wonderful Peace Corps administration staff got to stay home from work, I was woken up by Lalo, clapping at my door at 7, to start work on seed beds for our vivero, or tree nursery. I pretended to have been up for awhile, mumbled some non-committal, incomprehensive Guaraní and stumbled around while making coffee (I had stayed up late reading, falsely believing that I could sleep in due to the federal holiday). Three hours later, we had at least 20,000 Yerba Mate seeds planted in two well-protected seed beds to hopefully grow and share amongst the community or sell to outside interest. This project has sparked a lot of interest in my host brothers and I’m hoping to also plant citrus and native tree seeds as well, to eventually start reforestry efforts in Óga Ita. We’ll see how these seed beds turn out, but it could be a start for a big community-wide project that both myself and the people are excited about.

Families still tend to gather on holidays, no matter how big or small the affair, and my sister Fermina came over from Joveré, Chara’s community, for lunch. After eating, we sat, gossiped about Chara, discussed how long it had been since Chara had visited her, suggested that maybe I mention this to Chara, and decided that Fermina should just take matters into her own hands and go visit Chara herself. Chara is her favorite topic with me, which is fine, because I’m the topic of conversation when she’s with Chara. Then she asked to see my garden. Now, here’s the thing: I have a very lovely garden space. It’s seven large raised beds surrounded by a nice fence I made of branches and partially shaded by a large Guatambu tree, but for some reason, the only thing I can get to grow is beans and two tomato plants that flowered with the promise of ripe, juicy, sweet tomatoes, but then decided that I was undeserving of such fruit. It’s been raining heavily lately and whatever the rain didn’t squash flat and bury, the ants promptly devoured. My garden is slightly embarrassing right now. But there I was, standing with my mom and Fermina, looking over the fence while I said “the carrots used to be there. And the Swiss chard was growing there. And I had cucumbers planted there. And at one point there was a jalepeño there. And I thought the lettuce had come up there. And it had looked like the cabbage might survive…” The suffix –kuri is added to verbs in Guarani to make them past tense and –kue can be added to a noun to mark that it once existed, but no longer does. I was using both a lot. Throughout this whole narrative, Fermina is just staring at the empty beds dubiously and my mother is just nodding her head slowly, as if she knew originally that my garden was headed towards impending doom. She always knows these things. It was embarrassing. And all she said was, “Ohhhh well you have work to do then, so we’ll leave now”. So much for a holiday.

Some may recall my tale of following cows around with a shovel and digging through my mom’s garden trash looking for corn husks and watermelon rinds. Six months later, I have some pretty beautiful compost and it’s the main addition to my garden renovation. Recently, my friend Spencer, who lives in Seattle, sent me a photo of a small container garden that he put together on his patio. I have never been more jealous, just based on the color of the soil in that photo. It was dark and rich and his plants looked happy. I look at mine and it’s marbled red and white with clay and sand and my plants look like they’re surviving, just not thriving.  This new compost is a big deal for my garden and yet it’s taken me six months to get it. In the U.S., we have it easy. Anyone can garden and actually succeed and be good at it! You can go to big home and garden stores and pick up manure, compost, potting soil, peat, mulch, ready-to-plant seedlings, insecticide, herbicide, potassium, nitrogen, and phosphorus and take care of any garden issue or project in an hour! If there were a Home Depot in Obligado, it would be my second home. But instead I have to think differently to appease Fermina. I boil water as a soil treatment to kill bad bugs. I collect ash from my mom’s outdoor oven to deter ants. I wait six months for decent compost to form, which really has seemed like six months of a committed relationship. So much heartbreak and joy has never come from cohabitation with a box of cow poop and kitchen scraps. I love you, compost. Rohayhu.

I’ve embarked on take 2 of my garden. Chance’s garden: the remix. I’m hopeful that my beds will have more nutrients now and that the bugs will stay away for enough time that my plants can sprout and I can make an organic pesticide. And maybe Fermina will stop by on her way to help send a little piggy to that big sty in the sky this afternoon and see the work I’ve done. But really, it’s not about Fermina. All this work is for me to enjoy the literal fruits of my labor. I’d love to have something to put on the table this winter for myself and Moritz, other than beans. He’s a picky eater.

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Abundio with the finished seed bed. The grass on top is to keep the soil humid and protect from the sun.

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My brothers, Lalo on the right and Abundio on the left, working on a seed bed

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At least I’ve got beans

Timshel

“This too shall pass” – Tanya Gipson-Nahman

Timshel. Thou Mayest. – East of Eden by John Steinbeck

Óga Ita, Alto Verá, Itapúa

In the training center in Guarambaré, there is a piece of paper with a big wavy line on it. It starts out with small, more shallow, up and down waves that get bigger as the line continues. At certain points on the line, at peaks and valleys, there are markings referring to time periods in service and a list of descriptive words. This is the emotional roller coaster of Peace Corps Service. It marks the emotional highs and lows and elaborates on how we can potentially be feeling at certain points in our service. No two volunteers follow the exact same roller coaster of emotions, but it gives a general sense of how we process our service and develop personally.

May was a low. A pretty deep one.

I have no idea how to describe why May was so terrible. It could have been the 100% humidity and low temperatures that left everything with a black/blue fuzz. It could have been that the rain just completely destroyed my garden. It could have been that when I made detergent with my women’s committee, the biggest event I had planned, my host mother referred to it as “un disastre”. It could have been that when I replaced my computer screen, which had broken in April when a hammer fell on it, it broke again one week later, and when I replaced that screen, not four days ago, my computer fell out of its case and the screen broke again. It could have been that when I needed to go to an important training on project development, none of my community contacts could go because there was a soccer game that week. It could have been any of those things that made May so terrible.

However, there is hope for June. Toward the end of training, our Director of Programming and Training, Tanya, an absolutely wonderful woman, told us one simple line to keep in mind: “This too shall pass”. There are highs, but there are lows to follow. And although we may be tumbling down the side of a mountain into a deep valley, there’s always the other side to climb back up. This simple saying has been my mantra throughout every item on my “Why May Was So Terrible” list. It is not only applicable to Peace Corps service, but to life in general. This too shall pass. And the fact that a moldy May can lead into a more productive and positive June gives me a little faith in myself.

The 29th of May happened to be the one-quarter milestone of my service. When reviewing what I’ve done in the last six months, I couldn’t really come up with anything big. Everyone tells me that I’m doing a great job and that they’re so proud of what I’m doing, but I just feel as though I haven’t accomplished anything worthwhile (you can deny my self-deprecation, but it won’t change anything). My lack of accountable activity has basically dropped me down the well that appeared to already be located at the bottom of a very large valley. But to escape this too, I have found my mantra; this time from literature. Hannah has long tried to persuade me that John Steinbeck was one of america’s greatest writers, but my experience with Grapes of Wrath in high school left me with a bitter taste in my mouth and a long-standing hatred for Steinbeck. I actually believe that my existence has been sustained by this deep-rooted dislike for Steinbeck’s literature. Hannah, however, practically forced upon me East of Eden and told me to read it. I finished all 602 pages in a week. I devoured that book. I felt more engaged by East of Eden than I have felt in a long time. My mantra comes from the most powerful phrase in the book and the very heart of its story: Timshel. Thou Mayest.

That word carried a man’s greatness if he wanted to take advantage of it … it set him free, it gave him the right to be a man, separate from every other man … that makes a man great, that gives him stature with the gods, for in his weakness and his filth and his murder of his brother he still has the great choice. He can choose his course and fight through and win.

Never have I been so affected by one word of literature. In my weakness this month, this word jumped out at me. My lack of accountable activity had me in such a deep low at this point of my service. But with Timshel, with this word, I know that I can choose my own course. I can take control. I have that power. I can do great things. And I will. This is my service and I can choose to be a great volunteer in the eyes of my community. I’m in a slump, but I have the power to get out of it, and that’s why June is going to be so much better than May.

To prove my point, it’s June 8th and this evening I asked my main contact, Lalo, if he’d like to start a tree nursery. Not only did he say yes, but we immediately began planning and even went out to the citrus field to find a specific lime tree, which will provide good root stock for citrus grafting that we can do next year if everything goes according to plan. Tomorrow I’m going to my neighbor’s house to get yerba mate seeds to plant and I’m going to start the paperwork to request native tree seeds from the National Forestry Institute of Paraguay. TIMSHEL. I got this!

So here I am, in June, and already headed up the other side of the valley. It feels good. I am in control and I’ve taken charge. So raise a glass for me, and maybe for my good friend John Steinbeck too, who’s made his mark and empowered me beyond any other author ever could have.